"Change occurs when one becomes what he/she is, not when he/she tries to become what he is not"
The Love Addict in Relationship Withdrawal
Tracy, a 30 year old love addict shares her story of a relationship break up:
"When he said it was over, I stopped breathing. I could not gather my thoughts. I felt like it wasn't happening, but it was. It was surreal. My stomach turned up side down, my mouth was dry, I was sweating, my heart trembling. Out of intense denial, I said to him-- you're not serious are you? What's going on? In an unsteady voice, knowing deep down it is true, a rush of panic and shock waves pulsated through my body as the dagger pierced my chest. As weeks went on, I was trying to grapple with the intensity of it all. I had micro moments of imagined sanity. In denial, with frequent periods of intense crying and waling, I could hear the loud echoes of my bouncing off the walls. All the emptiness in my body was present every waking moment. I felt I had lost my soul..."
It's normal for people who experience loss of a relationship through divorce or a break up to experience a grieving process--feel hurt, pain, abandonment reactions, sorrow and heartache. There might be the sense of failure, hopelessness, loss, despair, fear, or desperation. They will move through a grieving cycle (with varying lengths of time). Eventually, as they move through these emotions, they will come to feel better and heal.
Withdrawal symptoms may be anxiety, panic, fear, nausea, dramatic changes in weight, insomnia, depression, loneliness, obsession, anger, rage, emptiness, denial, and despair. Love addicts in withdrawal often experience irrational thoughts, distortions, and feelings of being powerless. The feeling or inner sense of being completely diminished and insufficient as a person, flood the "being" of their soul. The intense feeling of rejection by their partner's abandonment and neglect sends the message that reinforces what they already believe inside--they were not worthy of being with. It all seems like they're swimming upstream against the currents of fate--fate working against them with no ending.
Family members and friends haven't a clue or any frame of reference to the trauma the love addict is experiencing. Their simple solutions of, "just get over it" or "leave him/her, and find someone new" never work. This only fuels a more inner sense of shame, weakness, or unworthiness in the love addict.
Ironically and unconsciously, one powerful way love addicts hold on to denial (denial is often strongly present during withdrawal) is through obsession. Obsessions come in many forms and may include fantasies about recapturing the romantic relationship--the magical person they lost, the good times, sex, passion, chemistry, intensity--while ignoring or filtering the truth that it was more chaos than bliss.
Obsession fans a love addicts feelings of rejection into an emotional inferno. It is the pinnacle of all the experiences of withdrawing from love and other addictions. The preoccupied thoughts often seem to take control and one feels extremely powerless to stop them. Even if love addicts want to stop (or slow down) obsessive thoughts, they are often unable to. Obsessive thinking is often the purest form of distortion or irrational thoughts in withdrawal involving the compulsive need to think about certain people, situations and/or behavior over and over again. The obsessed person tends to focus on a single element in its extreme and process everything associated with the particular element as all black or all white.
Love addiction withdrawal is not unlike withdrawing from a heroin
Like heroin addicts grieving the drug habit, love addicts profoundly grieve their lost "relationship". The intense feeling of rejection by their partner, abandonment and neglect send the message reinforcing what the love addict already believed inside, that they were not worth being with. Withdrawing creates a humiliation so painful or so profound that one feels one has been robbed of her/his dignity or exposed as basically inadequate, bad, or worthy of rejection. It all seems like swimming upstream against the currents of Fate, Fate working against them, with no ending.
Are you withdrawing from a love-addicted relationship breakup?
Right now, I know that just sound like rubbish, I understand. As hard as it is right now, it's important to see this as a chance in your life for real healing and change in your life. But- this will only be true if you don't run and escape... this will only be true for you if you take the steps that will help you break the toxic pattern. Certainly not doing anything and believing another person or returning to your toxic relationship will lead you back to where you are today- I guarantee that.
Far too often, the painful symptoms of withdrawal are so unexpected and bewildering that it leads many people to ongoing relapse in which there is a return to unhealthy behaviors, unhealthy relationships, and no healing-- and for sure, an ongoing pattern that will no doubt continue in the years to come. Is this what you want? Of course not. Don't accept the lies in your head of what your love addiction may be trying to say to you.
It is time to honor yourself and your life now- you have a right to do so.
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